My message to Ronnie

[Anita]

My Dear Ronnie,

Words can not express the incredible loss that I still feel 9 months later. I'm still having a hard time gathering my thoughts together but words can't really express fully how I feel. Even now as I try to type this up into a document on my computer I'm finding it really hard to hold back the tears as Holy Diver plays through my headphones. The first thing I ever saw/heard from you was that song. This man on my TV screen wanting/commanding my undivided attention and he got it.

Though I never had the chance to know you or see you perform. Life may have taken you away but life can not take away the wonderful music you gave to all of us. You still bring an immense joy to everyone even though we're all pretty much still hurting.

I also want to say I'm sorry as well. For not being there with my thoughts and prayers as I had no idea what was going on. And on a selfish note, not being the fan that you deserved out of me. I feel bad for that and I'm sure I always will. I wish I could have told you what you meant to me.

May you continue to live on through your family, friends, fans and those that have yet to discover you and your musical legacy. I have other things I would like to say but can't.

Maybe one day we'll meet on another plane of existence and have that conversation. But until then I shall cherish you in my thoughts and dreams.

My heart goes out to Wendy and your family and friends.

Anita
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Good-byes are easy to remember...you can see the hurt still there in my eyes