I'm still hurting :-(

[StargazerGeisha]

What's getting me thru is celebrating what we all had instead of what we lost.

[MySweetRonnie]

[RIP Ronnie

[MadMartin]

I don't have anything new to contribute with. Just so sad he's gone. Take care!

[Rainbow]

I have been trying to get on with things, keeping busy hoping to perhaps bury my head in the sand for a while. As soon as I stop buzzing around like a bee on caffeine it's as though I hit a brick wall and come down with a thump.

I don't know why I'm still so sad. Of course I am thankful for everything Ronnie has given to us. I know his music will live on and always be here. But the thought of Ronnie not being here still tears me apart.

My little son still keeps asking to see Ronnie singing on the computer. His favourite one to watch is this one
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LmSt1oEIshE

Maybe because Ronnie looks so happy.
I'm amazed at how my little mans face lights up! the only other one to brighten his face this way is bear ( from the big blue house, hey, he is only 33 months lol )
I feel sad that my son, River, will never get to meet Ronnie or see him sing live on stage. At the moment as far as River is concerned, Ronnie is very much alive, well and happy and a part of our every day life. I believe Ronnie will always be a part of us. I hope that River will continue to love Ronnie's music and as he grows up I will tell him more about the man.

I hope that in time I will stop hurting this way. I'm still finding it very hard

[MySweetRonnie]

RIP Ronnie

[Hamalane]

I'm having some hard time as well.. Especially at night. During the day, I have plenty of stuff to keep my mind busy. And music does help me as well. But sometimes at night, or when I have nothing to do, my mind wanders.. and then it comes again. Lately, I have the feeling that someone has pressed the "fast forward" button of my life: At one point I can be feeling so good, and one second after, so low, and I don't even know why. I go up, and down, and up again, and it all happens so quickly..

I keep listening to his music, just like I always did anyway, and it does bring some warmth and comfort to my heart. But there are moments when it's just too much, and I choke again.. And sometimes even the slightest thing can start it all again.. Including a word during a class, or just a little thought as I am on the bus.

As far as the DVD is concerned, I watched the snippets from it and although I certainly want to watch it, I too can't help thinking about the pain he was going through at the time -- and you wouldn't guess.. all that he had to suffer because he didn't want to cancel any show.. Yeah, "if only".. I guess it will make it harder to watch the DVD knowing it, but I want to enjoy watching it.. and I will. Oh yes, I will.
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Carry high the torch given by the Angel
Deep within the soul lies the key to the truth
Burn again, don't let down, you know you can be strong
Spread your wings and fly!

[MySweetRonnie]

RIP Ronnie

[Non]

Only if...I always think that way too.
Actually I didn't watch DVD yet although I received on 27th of Oct.

My mother died of lung cancer and she survived for 5 years after diagonized. Of course it depends on the kinds of cancer, but normally its progress is very slow in older people.
I tend to think that Ronnie may have been sick 4 or 5 years ago.
When I watch 2005 Holy diver live, 2007 Radio city live, I can't help thinking that he might have slight little pain or something in his stomach.

My friend's husband was a staff of Loudpark Japan in 2007.
And she was also on the side of the stage to watch Ronnie.
During guitar solo and drum solo, Ronnie went back to wings of the stage and sat on the chair breathing so rough and harshly, getting out of breath, shaking his shoulder up and down.
He looked so much tough, and nobody couldn't come close to him.

When I heard this on 18th of May from her, I was so shocked.
Obviously he worked too hard and his condition was not good.
After that, I don't want to watch video after 2005 or 2006.

I read an article in magazine telling that Ronnie got so angry when his girlfriend took him to hospital. He didn't want to go to hospital even if he had a pain.

If this was true, "only if" would have not happen.
If Ronnie decided to burn his life on stage, seeing a doctor is a last choice.
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☆Tell me lies as long as it's not about love☆

[Rainbow]

I think I would find that DVD very hard to watch.

It's really weird and a bit strange but I said something to my husband when " the devil you know," came out. I said that Ronnie sounded as though there was something going on deep within him. I thought I could sense some pain and sadness. Nothing obvious, just " a feeling," I got. My husband told me I was being stupid and put my feelings down to feeling down about what I was going through at the time. in other words " it was all in my head,"

Poor Ronnie it breaks my heart to hear about the pain he must have gone through. Men can be so silly when it comes to seeing a doctor about anything. My best friend, Dave, was the same. Dave had Bowel cancer. He had complained about pains for over a year but nothing and no body could force him to the doctor!. He only decided to go when the pain was unbearable but it was then too late to help him Dave Died in March last year

There are so many " if onlys," and " what ifs,". I have been driving my self mad thinking of all the possibilities of what could have been, both with Dave and Ronnie. I really wish they could both still be here, pain free, happy and healthy.

If it was not for my little boy I would be turning my back on this life to join my best friend and our beautiful Ronnie. My little boy is the only thing keeping me here, even though I've become a useless mother

[MadMartin]

I used to love to listen to RJD's music and I still do, but now a days it is always with touch of sadness and melancholy...

At first I couldn't listen to his music the first months after his passing.

[MySweetRonnie]

RIP Ronnie

[MadMartin]

I've couldn't have said better...

[The Masterstroke]

[rossmosis]

Just wanted to stop by again and pay my respects to the man, I think about him every day and luckily we all have his music to keep us company. I'll always regret not seeing him live, but I was either too young, too broke, or he didn't come to Wisconsin. His music inspires me every day, whether I listen to his oldies while in the Prophets, or the newer stuff in Black Sabbath or on his own. I'll never forget the memories I've had that pertain to him, and I know he's resting in peace. Long live Ronnie James fucking Dio!

\m/ i'll make an effort to post here more, i like this place

[MySweetRonnie]

RIP Ronnie