I'm still hurting :-(

[Holymagica]

[Reem]

thank you so much HolyMagica....you are all here together....we'll share our grieve together better than being alone....

[Rainbow]

This is still the only place I can share my grief. Other times I feel so alone, even in a room full of people.
I cannot fully open up and express my feelings at home. My husband knows that I'm still sad but doesn't fully understand. He probably thought that the sorrow would pass by now.
Next month is the high voltage festival, Tony Iommi and the guys will be paying tribute to Ronnie. I think a lot of emotion will come out then. I will probably weep my heart out for all to see I'm a bit worried about what my friends and husband will say. I feel that I've been holding so much inside that I will just explode!.
My husband has been listening to all of Ronnie's music with me. He feels as though he has missed out. I'm so glad we got to see heaven and hell together in 2007. I'm so sad we missed out on the sonisphere festival thinking " there will be plenty more gigs,"
My little son keeps demanding that I play " rainbow in the dark," and every time he see's Ronnie on you tube he says " ronnie singing," I hope he will always remember Ronnie and love the music.
For me it's about so much more than the music. I feel as though part of me has died

[Non]

I truly agree and understand how all of you feel.
We cannot believe that Ronnie has gone. We cannot accept that.
I just have been wanted to see Ronnie on stage and meet up with him for hug and some talk.

Outsider cannot understand what Ronnie meant to us.
So they don't know our unbelievable sadness and huge depresstion which we almost cannot overcome.

Most of the people here has own family. husband or wife or children. You still have loved one, even if you cannot share the sadness with them.
But I don't have any family members. I'm alone in this world.
Ronnie is the only one person that I love the most in this world.
He was my everything.
So I cannot be without him.
"Let's live until I see Ronnie in London. hold on".
"I will hold on until Ronnie goes back to the stage".
I tried to encourage myself in order to live.
But without him I have no more reason to live. I am nothing.

I understand that he has used up his body.
And he gave his whole lot a love to the people and left.
And he is still here with me.
But I have nothing to do in this life now.
So I want to go to see Ronnie over the rainbow.....
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☆Tell me lies as long as it's not about love☆

[LindaJeanne]

Non, please hold on.

[Rainbow]

Dear Non

I really understand how you feel. I have been where you are when all I had was Ronnie's music, his words and his gentle smile to comfort me. I know how hard Ronnie's passing must be affecting you, I really do. We all feel the terrible pain of his loss. We are all hurting but we have to hold on. Ronnie would want us to.

Ronnie sang of hope when things seemed hopeless, saw silver linings in the darkest skies. We all must try to do the same. Ronnie will still speak to you when you need him, he is still all around us. We will see him again one day, but now is not our time.

You say that you are alone with no family, I say that you are part of a big family, the Dio family. We will be here for you, to listen, to comfort, what ever you need we will all be here.

Please take care
Love
Rainbow
Xxx

[DioInfinitum]

Without exaggeration, Ronnie's passing has been very sad for me to deal with.

My wife doesn't quite take it that seriously how much Ronnie meant to me as the other day she quipped, 'C'mon, get over it, you didn't really know him.'

I did not really know Ronnie personally, but I have long been inspired by him in so many ways. I am as enchanted today by his voice and lyrical style as as I was over 20 years ago. I saw him in concert 3 times and was fortunate to meet him twice.

I got introduced to 'The Last in Line' by a VHS video magazine called 'Hard and Heavy.' Beyond his music I always have sought out interviews.

I cannot underestimate what Ronnie passing has meant to me.

It all really came as a shock for me with Ronnie. Who could have imagined this might happen? Everything from Ronnie last year was about all the new material and work he was going to do. 67 is not that old. It's amazing how much of a full life he lived.

I was feeling he might squeak through and defeat the cancer. I heard him say 'this hasn't really been a problem for me.'

Dio's passing has brought me back to his music. Even for periods when I wasn't listening, I never forgot about the guy, and I never stopped looking out for where he was and what he was doing.

I have been such a huge fan of Ronnie for a long time. It is hard for me to wrap my head around him not being here and putting out several more new albums. I expected to see him in concert again some day, maybe even get the chance to talk to him again.

Ronnie was a positively singular individual, with an equally singular voice, he inspired artistic treasure troves in my own heart, every square inch and pound, Ronnie was indeed original biology.

Yesterday my father went to the hospital with a burst appendix. He's over 60 years old and it seems so far that he was lucky to catch it early. I felt extremely emotionally stirred up over it for a short bit, and it swirled up my feelings about Ronnie. I always have this intense fear that I could lose either of my parents some day.

[MySweetRonnie]

RIP Ronnie

[Non]

Thank you for your posts encouraging me.

Rainbow,
Yes, Ronnie was/is all for me.
As I wrote in another tread, I can feel Ronnie hugging me.
And I do believe that he became an angel to help us all.
But when I forget him being here with me, I feel so alone in the bottom of the world.

My Sweet Ronnie,
I'm a female. And I really understand what you say.
Ronnie is so sexy and cute and charming man to me.
I never care he gets older because he's still so sexy.
In my house, more than 20 pictures of Ronnie are watching me.
Whenever I go in a house, I meet up with Ronnie's eyes.
Then I would not have time to think that I am alone.

I sing in Dio band, Sabbath band, Rainbow band.
So I am chasing Ronnie all the time, he is always far beyond though.
And in my blog called "My dearest Ronnie", I update the news or interviews related to him day by day.
Hey, all my life is filled with Ronnie actually.
This is really tough.

He is the man to me.
My lover, ultimate singer, greatest musician and lyricist and holy man.

Namely I am nothing without him.
But I need to walk on my own life...
...with his music and all of you... A big Dio family.

Thank you so much everyone here.

Huge love and hug.
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☆Tell me lies as long as it's not about love☆

[olivious the drummer]

Just remember Non that we are just an email, or a forum entry away!

No one in the Dio family is alone.....we are one big extended unit and are here for each other through the bad times and the good times.

Ronnie would want us all to carry on living his music, remaining strong as a family and remembering everything he and we have achieved over the years. He always publicly said that without us he was nothing and his whole reason for living was to give to those who so patiently waited, paid their money, sent him pictures, letters everything.

He loved and loves each and everyone one of us so whilst we are all terribly sad at his passing the darkness will start to lift and I know that whilst, personally I will never get over it, I have all the memories and the fantastic legacy he left us but also there is lots of new stuff coming our way and that excitement of a new release will always remain.

All of us, male or female, must remain strong for the sake of Ronnie - he would feel terrible that he caused anyone so much pain. So please everyone - think positive and when youre down play some Dio and remember everything good about it.

Love you all, my extended family.

Oli
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Stand up and Shout!!!!!

[Rainbow]

Hi, I hope everyone is OK and staying strong right now. I often think of the words that have been spoken on here and I can feel your pain.

I am finding it hard to stay strong this week. You see last year my best friend died of cancer It would have been his birthday this week. My only comfort is that he was there for my wedding, happy healthy and strong before being diagnosed with cancer only weeks later. The cancer took him quickly, he left us only 6 months after being diagnosed. He seemed to be getting better only weeks before he died. He looked happy and full of spark.
My best friend, Dave , was my other constant in my life. The other constant being Ronnie. Now they are both gone Dave was like a dad, big brother, best friend and drinking partner. He pulled me out of the deep darkness and brought me back to the light, just when I thought all hope was gone.
Both Dave and Ronnie were like my rocks to cling to in a stormy sea. When the sea got too much they were always there and I could keep my head above water. I think that loosing Ronnie has opened up all too fresh wounds about Dave as well as breaking my heart all over again. These men meant the world to me.

I'm finding it so hard with out my 2 lifelines in this stormy sea of life

[Rainbow]

I feel that the only thing that's keeping me going is my little son. Loosing Ronnie would have been too much to bare for me, it sometimes feels as though it IS too much to bare But recently I've even me asking my self if my son would be better off without me as I've been an utterly useless mess this past month

[MySweetRonnie]

RIP Ronnie

[Rainbow]

Thank you Melanie

Forgive the lateness of my reply. I've just been finding it so hard to put my feelings into words lately.
I understand what you are saying, Ronnie would never have been a physical part of my life and his music and image still remains. I can still find guidance from his lyrics and he still guides me to be the best me I can be.
Even though Ronnie was never really a physical part of my life it still feels like I've had my heart and soul ripped out . My life should be the same as it was before but it feels so empty. I expected to feel a little better by now but it gets harder.
Yes, Ronnie had a wonderful life and touched so many people with his " magic," the magic of Ronnie will always be alive and all around us. I just wish, as do many other I'm sure, that Ronnie could still be with us in a physical way. I always had hopes of meeting him and thanking him for the magic words he has given us all. I wanted to hug him, kiss him on the cheek and chat to him for as long as I could, all foolish and childish dreams I know, especially as I am married with a child. I believe my husband does love me, he just doesn't understand me.
I have been feeling like I'm not a good enough mother for my little boy because I've been so down, I've lost my energy and spark and just can't be " happy smiley full of silliness," Mummy at the moment. I can't fully tell my hubby or friends how I feel because they think I'm being foolish, I can see the look on their faces everytime I mention Ronnie.
I hope I can see the rainbow in the dark soon
Xxxx

[MySweetRonnie]

RIP Ronnie